Ok so it has been a while since I have written. When I started this I said that I was going to do it every week, and I guess that people would get tired of hearing from me, and life gets busy. So oh well, here is today’s post! So, two or three months ago I shared my story with everyone of the past year and our decisions and regrets and how God provided a way to turn those around. So here is what happened in those two months since. The month after I had baby on the brain! I am talking everything I ate, drank, thought was baby. All I could think about was "when am I going to get pregnant?" and "what if it doesn't happen?" and so forth. Well that month went by and nothing happened, but, as in this whole process, God spoke to me that month. A girl in my church that is pregnant and has an AWESOME story herself got up and spoke. She told the story of how God spoke to her and she trusted God and did not count days, or take medicine, just trusted. She went on to say God told her He wanted the glory for her child, not the doctors. Now I had known this story but felt that it was God reminding me that He is powerful and he really does not need my help, but if He wants a baby He will give me one. Well month three came and I did not do my regular planning or anything else and wanted to take a month off of all that and just enjoy my life. Every time a thought of baby came up I would say I want your will God, not my own. I focused on how blessed I truly was and as much as I wanted another baby God’s will is perfect. So the month went on and even though I was not counting days I still knew when to test. So I took a pregnancy test and it came back negative. I was a little disappointed but knew that God’s plan was perfect. Well a couple days went by and I was late, so I took another test and it was positive!!!! I was so happy and excited and words cannot describe how I felt. God had chosen to bless us with another baby. Well then on Tuesday there were some problems, I had to go get some blood work done. On Wednesday the results came back. My HCG was in a good range but my progesterone was low. Now the progesterone is what prevents your body from having contractions, and gets proper blood flow to the uterus and all that good stuff. So they started me on a pill and said we are going to check your HCG on Thursday to see if they had caught the problem early or if I miscarried the baby already. So as any mother can imagine I did not sleep well through the night and the whole time I kept praying, God I want your will, but if I am being honest I really want this baby to be ok! My HCG needed to be at 140 so all night I kept thinking ok God lets boost those levels, 140, 140, 140, then I stated praying, let’s blow 140 out of the water so there is not question, 150,150,150! So I woke up got my blood drawn and waited. The results came back and it was at 156! So not only did God answer, He one upped my request, He raised the bar on me. So now I sit here today with full confidence that God wants this child here. I cannot wait to meet this person! When we turn our will over to God and let Him take control, it is pretty amazing what He can do!!! I want to thank all my friends who prayed with us through this whole process. I am so blessed to have you guys! Love you all!
Trust in the LORD with all your Heart, and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge HIM and He will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6
